Already Ready for the Weekend

there is nothing like having that weekend where you have way too much fun, and absolutely no regrets... well maybe a few, but what really sucks is when it's over and you're left waiting on the next weekend. sometimes i think that i am losing my mind because i can never remember things, or i can't ever forget things and i am tired! i am tired of school, i am tired of bad friends and i am tired of dealing with boys... why can't there be a guidebook when it comes to talking with boys... its so annoying trying to guess what is going on and if anything is going to happen.... its exhausting... well off to class. yay me!

already ready for the weekend

I AM FUCKING AWESOME

the song "awesome" by plies is my new theme song i have decided because when i am singing it i am constantly saying that "i am fucking awesome"... its the self pump up song i have longed for... and i am currently sitting in the library with my friend alex and we are unable to control our laughter over a number of thing, for instance i had a great "that's what she said" joke and then alex's "stomach" growled quite loudly in a sea of silence. but other than my idiotic philanderings in the library, i have had quite the productive day.. i was in the library earlier for 2 hours and accomplished a lot of stuff i was kind of surprised with myself haha... and then while in my 4 o'clock class i was not only taking notes quite skillfully, but i also did 2 other assignment, texted on my phone and facebook chatted with some friends quite successfully, and i didn't get in a wreck or anything today, so i would say that i have been very productive. but then there is the aspect about my love life or should i say lack there of... but i am texting this guy that i hooked up with a few weekends ago.. and in the beginning it was all good, he would text me everyday and would always respond and would always keep the convo going, but recently he like won't text me until later in the day, he doesn't call me "darlin'" anymore and he takes like an hour to respond and now its me that has to carry on the conversation... so not cool, but of course i think i like the guy and i hate that because i don't want a douche bag... ugh why is life in the love arena always so freaking complicated and somewhat messy? but whatever i am not going to give up what i believe just so i can text some guy who i think i like even though i have only hooked up with him once when i was really, seriously drunk.. ha story of my life! anyway, why does this always happen to me? i am a good girl and i don't do drugs and crap and i am a virgin (yes, i seriously am), but i just never seem to find the right guy, instead i find mr. hey i want to get to know you only until i can hook up with you or mr. i hooked up with you so i feel like i need to keep in touch to be nice and then there's mr. i am so charming until you hook up with me and then i am gone! oh well you can't win 'em all... so for now i'll just leave it to the lord and give up for now!

Really?

there are so many things that can screw up your day, for instance today i had a test that i in no way was prepared for because last night, i couldn't study to save my life and then i had to go sit through a test that i am pretty sure i am going to fail. and then i go to the chi o house for lunch and its blt's and i think yes my day is sooo much better now, but oh no no i was wrong... because not 20 minutes later am i side-swiped by some idiot girl who didn't see me getting over... i mean honestly what does it take to have a good day all day? but then it got better after eating a good dinner with a friend and then nail polish shopping at chaney's, followed by a relaxing bath and a new coat of paint on my fingers and toes... spring here i come!

Story of My Life

all i want to do is my homework and get things done, but of course things never work out the way i plan them to. so this evening i am trying to study for my english test and of course i am jumping off the walls like no one's business and i cannot focus to save my life. all i want is to get things done and of course i can't do that on the one day i really need to... and now i am watching castle and of course not studying. i seriously think that i need to be on ADD meds or something ahhh! and i am blogging at the same time which is soo not helping with my studying... maybe i should go study now.