UGH!

i love that while i am sitting here in the library i am going out of my mind crazy! all i can think about are the things that are going on in my life and how all i want to do for the rest of the week is crawl up in my bed and stay there until thursday at 11:00 a.m. when my weekend officially begins! but of course i can't do that and i have to go to class and do homework and crap like that, but all i have is one class tomorrow and two classes on thursday, i can make it!!! but i have made a decision to go to Auburn University next weekend for Rodeo which i am really excited about because Blake Shelton is headlining! ahh and i get to see all of my Auburn friends and go with my good friends at Ole Miss... so maybe i'll meet a hot Auburn boy next weekend... yaya! anyway, i still can't stop thinking about my situations love-wise here in oxford haha... ugh what am i going to do with myself? all i want is this one guy to like me and of course he doesn't, so i guess the best thing to do is to just stop liking him and give up on it, right? who knows, all i know is that when i go to his frat's parties this weekend, he needs to be avoided due to the fact that i will be very intoxicated and probably a spectacle that shouldn't be witnessed.

Why?

Why? is a question that surrounds our everyday lives as women, and it sucks! Why don't I look like her? Why am I fat? Why can't I do that? Why won't he leave me alone? Why him? Why me? Why now? Why Why Why??? As a woman I ask myself these questions at least once or twice a day and it kills me that for some I don't have the answer. The whole reason I started this blog was so that I could express my feelings of my day in a Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and the City kind of way, and so far its working for me, but sometimes don't you just wish someone could give you the answer to every question you have? I think my most frequent Why? questions consist of Why doesn't he like me? Why does he like her? and Why am I a fat lard? The only answerable question there is the last one which is because you like to eat but you're lazy and you don't work out enough. But the one's that really matter and the ones that I really need the answers to are the first two questions. Men are simple, yet complicated, and being in college, they are still very immature. For instance there is this guy that I like, but I am not sure if he likes me back and sometimes it's hard to tell if he likes me at all. So this weekend there was this big spring party and so I went with a couple of my girlfriends and we were drinking and having a good time when some of our guy friends showed up and we were all hanging out, still having a good time, and the guy I like was there, but he hardly said a word to me. He waved to me when I walked in or at least I hope he was waving at me, then he hugged me and that was pretty much it. As we were listening to the band play, who was one of my favorite bands, I asked him if he danced and he was like not very well, but anyway a short time after that I was like I really want someone to dance with and I looked at him and he was like okay. So I attempted to teach him the two-step being a native Texan and all, and then he twirled me around and we were laughing and smiling then like all of a sudden he stopped and then he started to dance with a friend of ours girlfriend and I was like Why? Really? Seriously? UGH!!! And so I have decided to swear off men until the right one comes a long and comes after me. One of my best friends was like well maybe he's shy or doesn't know how to approach you... and I was like are you kidding? I am a very approachable person! But who knows maybe she's right or maybe I'm just weird and he doesn't like me ha, we may never know! SOML (Story Of My Life)! So I guess the real question of the day is Why do I care so much?