Homework... Who Needs It?

Doing homework can really dampen my mood. All I would want to be doing today is enjoying my day off from school, but no! i have so much homework that i have to do and then i have to go to rush workshop for 4 fucking hours... my life is a joke ha ha. FML. there is not much for me to say today, but all i can say is that i am just too stressed out right now... yay my life

Why Don't Money Trees Exist Yet?!

How is it that I am so bad with money. Oh I know why, because I love to shop! This is a serious problem and I think that I need to seek some help ha... I have made about $1400 this summer being a camp counselor and would you like to know how much of it I have left... about $90... I am so fucked its ridiculous. My mother is going to kill me and I think that I am going to throw up I'm so damn mad at myself! I should know better by now, I'm 20 years old for christ's sake (forgive me Lord), but this just plain sucks... But at least I got almost everything that I need for my room! I am gonna have to sell about half my clothes to get some more cash, but whatever ha... Why don't money trees exist yet??? But hey I'm going back to school soon and I cannot wait! I can't wait to get back to my friends and get back to Oxford and even school, I'm actually excited to start classes for once in my life! Wooo!! Plus the partying isn't so bad either ha... So here's to being broke off my ass and going back to the place that puts me even further in debt... True life I'm a college student!

UGH!

i love that while i am sitting here in the library i am going out of my mind crazy! all i can think about are the things that are going on in my life and how all i want to do for the rest of the week is crawl up in my bed and stay there until thursday at 11:00 a.m. when my weekend officially begins! but of course i can't do that and i have to go to class and do homework and crap like that, but all i have is one class tomorrow and two classes on thursday, i can make it!!! but i have made a decision to go to Auburn University next weekend for Rodeo which i am really excited about because Blake Shelton is headlining! ahh and i get to see all of my Auburn friends and go with my good friends at Ole Miss... so maybe i'll meet a hot Auburn boy next weekend... yaya! anyway, i still can't stop thinking about my situations love-wise here in oxford haha... ugh what am i going to do with myself? all i want is this one guy to like me and of course he doesn't, so i guess the best thing to do is to just stop liking him and give up on it, right? who knows, all i know is that when i go to his frat's parties this weekend, he needs to be avoided due to the fact that i will be very intoxicated and probably a spectacle that shouldn't be witnessed.

Why?

Why? is a question that surrounds our everyday lives as women, and it sucks! Why don't I look like her? Why am I fat? Why can't I do that? Why won't he leave me alone? Why him? Why me? Why now? Why Why Why??? As a woman I ask myself these questions at least once or twice a day and it kills me that for some I don't have the answer. The whole reason I started this blog was so that I could express my feelings of my day in a Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and the City kind of way, and so far its working for me, but sometimes don't you just wish someone could give you the answer to every question you have? I think my most frequent Why? questions consist of Why doesn't he like me? Why does he like her? and Why am I a fat lard? The only answerable question there is the last one which is because you like to eat but you're lazy and you don't work out enough. But the one's that really matter and the ones that I really need the answers to are the first two questions. Men are simple, yet complicated, and being in college, they are still very immature. For instance there is this guy that I like, but I am not sure if he likes me back and sometimes it's hard to tell if he likes me at all. So this weekend there was this big spring party and so I went with a couple of my girlfriends and we were drinking and having a good time when some of our guy friends showed up and we were all hanging out, still having a good time, and the guy I like was there, but he hardly said a word to me. He waved to me when I walked in or at least I hope he was waving at me, then he hugged me and that was pretty much it. As we were listening to the band play, who was one of my favorite bands, I asked him if he danced and he was like not very well, but anyway a short time after that I was like I really want someone to dance with and I looked at him and he was like okay. So I attempted to teach him the two-step being a native Texan and all, and then he twirled me around and we were laughing and smiling then like all of a sudden he stopped and then he started to dance with a friend of ours girlfriend and I was like Why? Really? Seriously? UGH!!! And so I have decided to swear off men until the right one comes a long and comes after me. One of my best friends was like well maybe he's shy or doesn't know how to approach you... and I was like are you kidding? I am a very approachable person! But who knows maybe she's right or maybe I'm just weird and he doesn't like me ha, we may never know! SOML (Story Of My Life)! So I guess the real question of the day is Why do I care so much?

Already Ready for the Weekend

there is nothing like having that weekend where you have way too much fun, and absolutely no regrets... well maybe a few, but what really sucks is when it's over and you're left waiting on the next weekend. sometimes i think that i am losing my mind because i can never remember things, or i can't ever forget things and i am tired! i am tired of school, i am tired of bad friends and i am tired of dealing with boys... why can't there be a guidebook when it comes to talking with boys... its so annoying trying to guess what is going on and if anything is going to happen.... its exhausting... well off to class. yay me!

already ready for the weekend

I AM FUCKING AWESOME

the song "awesome" by plies is my new theme song i have decided because when i am singing it i am constantly saying that "i am fucking awesome"... its the self pump up song i have longed for... and i am currently sitting in the library with my friend alex and we are unable to control our laughter over a number of thing, for instance i had a great "that's what she said" joke and then alex's "stomach" growled quite loudly in a sea of silence. but other than my idiotic philanderings in the library, i have had quite the productive day.. i was in the library earlier for 2 hours and accomplished a lot of stuff i was kind of surprised with myself haha... and then while in my 4 o'clock class i was not only taking notes quite skillfully, but i also did 2 other assignment, texted on my phone and facebook chatted with some friends quite successfully, and i didn't get in a wreck or anything today, so i would say that i have been very productive. but then there is the aspect about my love life or should i say lack there of... but i am texting this guy that i hooked up with a few weekends ago.. and in the beginning it was all good, he would text me everyday and would always respond and would always keep the convo going, but recently he like won't text me until later in the day, he doesn't call me "darlin'" anymore and he takes like an hour to respond and now its me that has to carry on the conversation... so not cool, but of course i think i like the guy and i hate that because i don't want a douche bag... ugh why is life in the love arena always so freaking complicated and somewhat messy? but whatever i am not going to give up what i believe just so i can text some guy who i think i like even though i have only hooked up with him once when i was really, seriously drunk.. ha story of my life! anyway, why does this always happen to me? i am a good girl and i don't do drugs and crap and i am a virgin (yes, i seriously am), but i just never seem to find the right guy, instead i find mr. hey i want to get to know you only until i can hook up with you or mr. i hooked up with you so i feel like i need to keep in touch to be nice and then there's mr. i am so charming until you hook up with me and then i am gone! oh well you can't win 'em all... so for now i'll just leave it to the lord and give up for now!